Today I’m turning thirty.
Perhaps I should have deep and introspective thoughts on this new decade. Perhaps I’ll save those thoughts for the next decade. These days there isn’t much time for introspective thought. I’m fine with that.
Age isn’t something I think about often. It seems subjective to me. Somedays I feel I’m already firmly planted in my 30’s. Somedays I forget I’ve gotten older. Somedays I feel very young indeed – fresh with insecurities that have popped back in to say hello. Although I tried to convince Dan that 30 is really the end of my 20’s (meaning I won’t be “in my 30’s” until next year), the number doesn’t make me gulp. My 20’s have been full of love and life – familiar, new and unexpected. There has been richness, sorrow, favour, aching, mourning, questioning, laughter and joy. And I expect the same fullness of life in this upcoming decade. I feel the weight of its promise and I’m thankful.
I’m turning thirty but it’s really just another day. Another day full of the people dearest to me – another day missing some of the dearest to me. Another day where love grows deeper in that always miraculous way. Another day where frustrations find thankfulness, thankfulness finds joy. Another day that I look around in wonder at how this life of mine is unfolding in so many wonderful and surprising ways. Another day in this life that is so blessed.
Thank you, friends, for sharing in some of these moments with me. Thank you for taking the time to encourage, laugh, commiserate and listen. Your presence here is one those delightfully unexpected ways my life is made richer.