(Erm, sorry for the princess, but I couldn’t resist the chicken clown’s face.)
Hello again!
I’m back after my brief hiatus. Dipping a toe back in tentatively, hoping WordPress is kind to me and spares my posts from the glitch that was bothering me last week. It would seem there is a bug, yet unfixable, in the newest version of WordPress – which sadly I have.
Even over this short break I’ve missed sharing here but the break has been refreshing. Refreshing because in taking a break from writing here I’ve taken a break from my computer.
I’ve been feeling so muddled lately. Moving too fast but getting nothing done. Filling my spare moments with poor choices which were only tiring me out more. I was forgetting to enjoy the silence, those few moments when I find them. I felt trapped in some crazy cycle of exhaustion. And I started to worry it would lead me to another attack of shingles.
Stepping back – if only physically for a few days – has been good for me. I’ve been thinking about boundaries and choices and priorities. I’ve been brainstorming, coming up with lots of ideas but not a lot of solutions. While I wonder about all that, I’ve pulled back a little. I apologize for unanswered emails – I’ll get there but I’m taking my time and taking it wisely.
I’m remembering the firsts in my life; putting pen to paper again; setting limits and wearing internet blinders (in hopes that I won’t be distracted by every shiny nugget). I’m retrieving the peace I’d neglected, ditching stress, planning more time with my little people, and most of all remembering grace.
I’ve yet only taken a couple of baby steps but I’m feeling better all ready. Today has been a good day. School was done, baking and dinner accomplished, laughing, smiling, embracing. I didn’t feel like a crazy person. That’s good, too.
These moments are too precious to miss, these people growing in leaps and bounds, these days blurring by. But I’ve discovered I can freeze them, even if just for a moment, and breathe deep of this goodness.
Breathe in. Breathe out.
Whenever I have a weekend break from the internet/computer I always end up enjoying it. I hope your glitches are a thing of the past.
Take all the time Rach! Breathe in, breathe out…. I need to do that myself.
Ronnie xo
I have been thinking of you Rachel and am so happy for an update. It sounds like you are enjoying these moments and the life you have. I look for to your posts when you wnat to post, no pressure, just keep it fun and enjoy! Much love!
As mamas, we sometimes forget to look out for ourselves, especially when we have little ones. So stepping back was a wise thing to do. Do what you must, because we all understand.
Oh mama, we have been in a similar place for sure. You are amazing, don’t ever forget that. Stepping back for a bit can give us such perspective sometimes. I truly hope to hang with you and that pile of silly kids you have someday!
Glad you are finding a bit of time for yourself!
Good to hear from you, Rachel, enjoy your breather!
I’ve missed you too! I’m so glad to hear though that you’ve been doing some catch up on some much needed you/family time, and breathing a little easier.
We did the same on the weekend, no tv, no movies, no internet…It wasn’t really planned that way, but that’s how it turned out, and it was refreshing.
I think we’ll aim for more gadget free weekends. (I’d call it a wireless weekend..but every gadget is becoming wireless!)
I also forgot to say, you’ve got a fantastic set of goofballs. I love them!
Taking time to ‘breathe’ is very very important and necessary. I think it’s partly the season. Right now, I’m sort of treading water. Each week seems to bring some good and some unexpected ‘bad’ and also I have many things to accomplish by the end of May – only 3 months! Ack. Rachel, this will pass and you’ll be in a smoother sailing time. Hope the house stuff is going along nicely and you’re enjoying time with your children and husband.
Very silly photos of your clan!