::reality check::

“Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more.

It turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity. It can turn a meal

into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend. Gratitude makes sense of our

past, brings peace for today and creates a vision for tomorrow.”

~Melody Beattie

In the name of gratitude and truthfulness I’ve decided to post a little piece of reality here once a week. Likely just a single picture. See my original post here.

I felt so good, and I jumped back in. Back in to stacked dished, unpacked boxes, dirty laundry. Back in to hurry, hurry, rush, rush, don’t-slow-down stress.

I felt it in my cheek. The red-angry cheek that was so nearly healed. The cheek that burned with indignation at the the rushing and the going and the worrying.

And once again morning showed the truth. Another break-out, swelling, pain and this time I’m paying for it double.

I know I missed that lesson so I’m learning it again.

Slow.

Slow.

Slow.

I’m annoyed and I’m frustrated.

Slow.

Slow.

Slow.

But I’m seeing things I might have miseed. Seeing things I was too busy to look for. Childhood’s dreamings, winds whisperings, slanting light’s stories.

I’m all or nothing seeking middle ground. In this act of motherhood so rich and full. Demanding and undoing. I’m forced to balance. Knees on floor. Head in hands. Heart wide open. I’m learning.

And learning means practice. And it doesn’t come quick. But I’m learning and I’m full of the goodness of it.

Grateful for grace.

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If you’d like to join in with a reality check of your own, please add a link or note in the comments!

P.S. There’s been a whole lot of reality here lately. I’ve been quite the downer but things are on the upswing. I’m opening my eyes and enjoying the good that surrounds me. Thanks for putting up with my aching heart.